Realization

Today, the SHA senior class went to see High School Musical 3. I have to admit it was better than I thought it would be. The thing is it just made me depressed, depressed, depressed. It made realize even more, I'm gonna be out of highschool in less than six months. Scary thought, aye? I still don't know what I'm gonna do with myself. I wonder whats gonna happen with my friends and me. I wonder if I'll even move out like I want. There's just so much I wonder about.

Well thats besides the point.. All I have to say is I'm over highschool relationships, boyfriend girlfriend wise, I mean. I no longer believe in being with someone "forever" unless it means 'till death. You know why? It's because FOREVER means so many things that it wasn't meant to mean. Forever is supposed to mean eternally but it is as overused as LOVE. Forever can mean until tomorrow; until next week; until next month; until a year from now. I'm pretty sure you know what I mean. Those meanings make "forever" meaningless.

At the same time why should someone care if they're with their significant one "forver" especially at this age!? Hello! Your still young. Have fun! DON'T WORRY IF SOMEONE BREAKS YOUR HEART! It's okay you'll live. Others will come and go. Until you find someone truly worth saying "until death".

Face it, God is a necessity, boys are, just well, A MEER DESIRE. You meet eachother, fall for one other, get hurt somewhere in the relationship, and you cry. MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU MOVE ON.

I'm not saying its impossible to fall in love with someone at this age but I have a feeling its not going to be able to compare to the love you have with your FUTURE husband/wife. In a reltionship there's love on different levels.

There's infatuation which isn't reall love at all. There's puppy love, yenno the kind that goes on between teens. Then there's the love for the "you know what and you know how", which isn't healthy at all. There's also the abusive kind, which is bad too. There's also that love that really means alot but in the end doesn't work out. There's also the love working its way to the most serious and important thing..eternal love. True love, the kind you find with a SOUL MATE. THERE'S THAT ONE GOD MADE YOU FOR, SILLY!

I still think its okay to be in love, its okay to be in relationship. Because without being broken you can't get stronger. Without making mistakes, you might mess up the most important love ever. Things we go through in our relationships now only help us later. It may hurt...

But for now why worry? Think of it, ARE YOU PLANNING ON GETTING MARRIED TOMORROW? I'm guessing your answer is no, right? So if your heartbroken, if your lonely, and all that stuff IT SERIOUSLY IS OKAY. You're never alone because GOD IS RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE 24/7. It's cuz you have friends and family that will LOVE YOU even if that guy or girl DOESN't anymore. So don't dwell on it. Being single is wonderful. For now focus on you being happy. After all you can't be happy with somebody else unless you can be happy "alone".


And here's another thought.. God's supposed to make you happy and well boys are just an add on feature to that smile on your face. GOD will be there for you more than ANY GUY WILL BE. TRUST HIM!



I loved once. I'm in no rush to love again. Those memories held good and bad moments but it was something to learn from. I'm happy we're I'm at. Like I said, "It's not like I'm getting married tomorrow anyway."



So for now run after Jesus, He's more worth it than a silly boy.
After all I'm pretty sure that LOVE is worth waiting all these years for.


BE HAPPY. JUST CHILL!! :)


After all less than 2% of highschool sweethearts actually get married
btw dont let anyone hold you back.








P.S. Sorry if I sound bitter. I'm just glad I figured out how I feel.

I DONT NEED A BOY TO MAKE ME HAPPY, TO MAKE ME SMILE.