Here I go Again

Just now I feel like breaking down. I feel my thoughts surrounding me and they're just about ready to make me scream. Thoughts of you are running through my head but I know I can't let it get to me. And I won't. That's why I'm writing again, even if I really don't have a point to this. I really don't like the silence, because it means I'm left here thinking about only God would know. I wish I could make a million wishes that would make things easier, but thats impossible. All I keep thinking is, "Whats next?" Seriously, I don't know. My mind is just full of thoughts one minute and blank the next. I can't keep concentrated. I need my next fix of the Twilight series or something. I sound like an addict.LMAO. But really to get back to who I was reading does help, and shut up I'm not a nerd trust me. Its just that when I need help getting back to the real world books help. And how can you be happy and sad at the same time? I dont know but I am.Ahah