No Worries, Liddat.

Hello real world.
So this is life after the retreat and I feel good. I feel high of God's love. I feel happier then before. I feel thankful for the weekend and for everyone that was there and made it what it was.

For once in my life I feel truly happy, and I mean it. During the retreat, I found myself crying and I realized

"Wait a minute.. This is the first retreat out of the five I've been to where I don't have to worry about anything, really. For the first time, I didn't have to worry about my boyfriend cuz I'm finally on my own again. Now its just me."

With that my eyes were opened wide. This is my time to fully rely on God. This is my time to give my love to Him, the love He deserves. I've realized every time I tried filling myself with things from this world to make me happy, He took it away. He took it away so I could learn how to be alone. Alone with him. When I wanted to get out of my house cuz i felt so empty, I could never find a way out. Personally, I think it was cuz He was waiting for me to run to Him, to depend on Him. Most of all to trust Him.

I had to be empty in order to be filled with His spirit, His love, and His light. Now I'm high, I'm on fire. And honestly I want the world to see how much HE means to me. He helped me realize I wasn't really missing you, I was just missing the closeness, the attention. He reminded me that all I need was Him to be the center of my attention, my life.

Its weird because I rarely cried. I felt good. I had no worries to cry about for once and it just felt GOOD. I mean yeahhh I realized there are things I'm afraid of but all I need to do is trust him. I have to remember I'm never alone with what I'm going through because somewhere out there someone feels the same way. And of course we can never be alone cuz Jesus is always here, even if we may not feel it, even if we may feel empty. It happens but its ok.
I'm sorry if all my thoughts are all over the place, I just don't know how to put every thing in words right now.


And another thing--
"True Happiness: find something you would die for and live for it." -- Anonymous


So true. God is the reason why I'm this happy. He is my true happiness, and I think thats what He wanted me to realize all along. After everything that happened in my past relationship, He just wants me to be stronger. Everything that happens, He puts us through it so that we may grow stonger. We just gotta remember we can alway find true happiness and true love in Him and because of Him.


God is like no other. His love is amazing. With Him, Jesus and the Holy Spirit miracles can happen. Soo much is possible because of Him. Everything everyone has and goes through is a blessing given to us from Him. And I'm talking about every obstacle too, even though thats hard to grasp. We must never forget He is always here to listen, to watch, and to be with us. Letting Him in your life and loving Him can do wonders :)















That is all, mahalo for your time :D
I love you.