Saturday, December 20, 2008

Bruises

After everything sometimes I feel like my best isn't good enough for you.

we get put through so much and i stick it out.yet when i ask your for one little thing you refuse. i don' get it. why can't i just have those two little things? i wish you could just see it as doing it for me and not yourself. whatever still love you even though things can be very irking.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Society

Today's society/culture is ridiculous.
We focus on things that should be the least of our worries.


People worry about fitting in.
Who cares!? If people truly appreciate you they won't care if you fit in with everyone else.

People want more and more.
Why should it matter?! Appreciate what you have. Plus the more you want, the more your life will just be about what you have.

People want the latest "this", the latest "that".
HELLO!Its only gonna get outdated. Get what you need when you need it. Don't waste your money on the unimportant things, thats just what society wants you to think is important.

People want more money, money, money.
Ugh yeah, money is nice but seriously money won't make you happy. Wanting more and more money with no intention of putting it to good use for the sake of others besides yourself.. THEN damn you're one greedy kid.

People also worry about me me me me me.

STOP IT. This world is only about you. If people truly loved another, we wouldn't have to worry about ourselves because the people that love us would be watching out for us.



Basically not everyone is like that but there is more to life than worry about this worldly things. If only society didn't mold us to care about money, fitting in, materialistic things life would be so much easier. If only we could just be ourselves without having to worry about what others think. If only people truly loved each other, every thing would be so much easier. Love would be the answer to how people in society are. Loving, caring, and truly listening would help sooo much. Don't be stupid, be yourself. Don't be afraid. Don't conform to today's society its not what you need. Man if people focused on their relationship with God more people these days would be 1,000,000,000,000 times more loving.

I'm not saying I'm perfect and I that I don't worry about these things, it just that I wish I didn't worry about these thing. And I wish I had a better relationship with God.

We care too much about things that won't even matter by the time we're gone. What should matter is forgiving yourself and forgiving others. What should matter is truly being there for each other. What should matter is listening to one another. What should matter is feeling for one another.










LOVE is what matters.

well my new insight is thanks to Tuesdays with Morrie. read it.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Thought of the Morning

So before I start studying for my physiology test, I felt like I needed to blog. Its been a few weeks so here it goes.


I've began to realize the people you love and care the most about can sometimes be the most irritating people in your world sometimes.
Example:
1. Parentals- Bugs me forever and ever and ever to do something that I'mprobably not gonna do till next week but I say okay anyway. Nags me endlessly about school, grades, and what not. Assumes the complete opposite of what I'm doing. They get mad at me for trying to make a point, when they in turn may be wrong. Yet despite all that its impossible to hate them. They did so much for me that makes me love them more.

2.Brother Bear- He's older but in his own ways annoying. Ahah. He ask me to wash the dishes or make him a bowl of ice cream just cuz his stupid finger makes him disabled. He's the number one sarcastic and overly dramatic person in the house, and sometimes its too much, especailly when I'm in the "i just woke up get away from me" mood. Yet, none the less, he is my brother. He will be there for me whether he likes the thought of that or not. HAHA.

3. The Besties- Their drama becomes my business and sometimes its too much. Too the point where you would like to ignore it. Their personalities are all different. I may not agree with what everyone does but still doesn't mean I shouldn't be there for them and be that bestie. No matter what happens I guess its seeing past the bad. And also embracing all the good about them that made me wanna be their bestie in the first place.

4.My Other Half-We play the blame game, fighting over stupid stuff and stuff that just needs to be left in the pass. We butt heads constantly and have the hardest time listening to each other. Despite all that goes on just because I say I'm irritated doesn't mean I'm giving. Relationships take work and I don't wanna give up. Love ya.



--my point:
despite all the shit i go through with everyone no matter how irritating it may seem i take it as God testing me. with Him i know i can love all those people no matter how bad things may be getting.










okay pau for now :)
i better start studying. i might fall asleep on the couch today hah